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Happy New Year, everyone!

Saturday, September 4th, 2010

Happy New Year!

No, I’m not crazy!

Where and when I grew up, school started the Tuesday after Labor Day. My big brother started school when I was about 3 and I couldn’t WAIT to start school myself. I was enamored with school. I wanted to go and I remember waiting for him each and every day to come home. I remember my mother finally relenting and sending me to nursery school the next year, because I was so insistent about SCHOOL.

I spent the next 19 years in school – 2 in preschool, 11 in elementary, junior high and high school, 4 in college and 2 in grad school. When I graduated from college, I married a guy who worked in the school system. Before he left, we had a son who was ready for preschool, himself. He spent the next 19 years in school. Until he was in college, school began either right after Labor Day, or at worst, a few days before the holiday weekend.

From the time I was three till I was 47, the year began in September, ended with the end of June and then there was the summer – a time out of the regular year. Fall was always a time of new beginnings. Shopping and new clothes. New subjects, new teachers, new friends, fresh chances. Enervating summer heat gave way to new energy as the air turned crisp. Reinvigorated, we both embraced our new academic challenge and reveled in our free time, now scarce and precious in a way it wasn’t at the end of summer.

This year, even though I’ve left academics behind for a while, a number of things have changed in my life, and I’m feeling the same reinvention of myself that I felt in years past. I’m ready to get moving, get things done and feel the newness of a “New Year!”

So, I challenge you to feel the freshness in the air and renew your commitment to yourself and your personal growth, spiritually, mentally, emotionally and in physical health. Get out, enjoy the weather, enjoy new and old friends, enjoy God’s creation!

Happy New Year, everyone!

Blogging about not blogging…

Wednesday, August 25th, 2010

It’s been months since I’ve written anything coherent enough to post here. Many days, I haven’t been together enough to write my name. And yet, for all that, I’m still hanging in.

You see, the first weekend in April is the last time I did any exercise that didn’t result in at least mild discomfort within hours. Somewhere in the week preceding Easter, I did something, or more likely a combination of somethings, that caused pain in my lower back.

It took 5 or 6 weeks of chiropractic and medical care to be healed enough for me to resume most of my activities. Long enough to lose most of my cardio conditioning and a fair amount of muscle tone. And, even though I’m able to do almost everything I used to be able to do, there are many more limits on how much and how often I can do things like run 6 miles or ride the trails on my mountain bike.

Add that to a crisis in my home life and what I got was depression. An ever deepening fog that sucked me in and blanketed my days. Makes it tough to do the basics, almost impossible to do what moves you forward and blind to the light at the end of tunnel.

Fortunately for me, my business is fitness. So, sooner or later, the basics of my day includes exercise. Hard, sweat inducing, heart-pounding, muscle-tiring exercise. Daily! Because I advertised the classes in the moments I was lucid enough to realize I had to. And slowly, the daily dose of endorphins are performing their magic. The fog is lifting.

Not all day and not every day. But enough to see the path that God seems to be leading me on. Enough to see encouragement in the response to my running classes (still a month away). Enough to be grateful for my friends and students (often one and the same) and, finally, enough to put fingers to keyboard to write again.

So, now, I’ll shut down for now, get myself out of the car, drag my bike out of the back and thank God for this gorgeous, slightly cooler and drier morning and go get me a dose of endorphins —- and since I’m riding alone, maybe even a bunch of adrenalin!

This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24

Good Lord willing…

Monday, September 21st, 2009

If you’re a kayaker, it’s never “and the creeks don’t rise.” Even if the rivers are TOO high, we know they’ll be coming back down soon. And coming back down means that sooner or later, we won’t be able to play anymore.

Yesterday, four of us got a chance to run a river that rarely runs in the summer. It runs frequently in the winter and the spring, and I got to spend several wonderful days (see “Girl’s Day Out” blog post!) there. I am always mindful of the days on this river, because I had just fallen in love with it, when the two year drought meant that I didn’t get to run it for those 2 years. So, I’m always aware that this run may be my last for a while.

I didn’t even promise myself this one. I hoped, but didn’t KNOW until Sunday morning when I saw the gauges were falling, but from a level that I knew would hold till at least afternoon.

This time, my companions were 3 women, two new to the Locust. One of these wanted to borrow and try one of my boats. She’s just reaching the level where the Locust is an option. The other is an experienced kayaker who just has never done this particular river. The third is a kayaking friend who never believes that she has the skills to run hard stuff, but has one of the most accomplished set of skills I know.

The water turned out to be very muddy, but at a marvelously fun level! However, it’s amazing how storm water can make a rapid look intimidating. Even though I’ve run Powell’s Falls a dozen times, it LOOKED big and fierce and ugly. Here’s what we saw!

After looking at it, the others opted out. No problem, rapids are something that you decide to run, or decide to not run. You’re alone in your boat and you make the move or miss it, so it’s always your decision. (There are rapids where you have no choice but to go through, but that’s another blog!)

Of course, as this clip shows, it was no big deal… much nastier looking than running!

But, this morning, we’re looking at a lot of stuff that’s way over flood stage. And more rain in the forecast… and that means, no excuse for avoiding work. And my work includes writing this blog. So, now that this is done, it’s time to run (not a river, on foot – can I get a trail run in before it rains again?)

Snakes, Planes and Fear

Wednesday, July 29th, 2009

I have often talked about the value of challenge and doing “the thing you think you cannot do.” I truly believe that to learn how strong we are, to discover how much we can accomplish, we would be wise to attempt the things we fear. Whether the challenge comes from inside ourselves or are posed by another, by meeting the challenges we take on willingly, by controlling our fear, we grow in strength and commitment.

When I talk about this to clients, groups and friends, I explain that I have tried many adventure sports and I really still fear 2 things – snakes and jumping out of a perfectly good airplane.

So, Sunday, I stepped aboard a perfectly good airplane, accompanied by two “tandem jump pilots” and my son, Jamie. Each jump pilot had a well packed parachute, a tandem harness and my son and I had cameras and a harness on me.

As we waited for our turn at a very busy drop zone, clouds had rolled in and the air had freshened. It was clear that a storm was on the way. What amazed me is that as I sat there, I became less anxious about jumping than I was about NOT jumping. You see, this was the last chance for a while that I would have to do this first jump with my son. I had become eager to face this challenge.

Finally, it was our turn. We had been hustled into our jumpsuits, and our “pilots” barely hestitated a step as they checked our harnesses and hurried us into the planes. We knew by their actions that there was only a short window to get our jump in, but their movements were sure and confident. Sandy, the plane pilot, launched us quickly skyward.

As we sat in the back of the plane, I filmed the takeoff out of the windows. Rick, my jump pilot, joked with Jamie and me, and Tom, Jamie’s pilot, showed how relaxed he was by taking a nap. I watched the altimeter on Rick’s wrist as it crept slowly towards 6,000 feet. Long before the preferred 10,000 feet, Sandy told Rick and Tom that she was turning to line up, that we went now or not at all.

Jamie and Tom were closest to the door and got ready first. A few short seconds later, they were gone and it was my turn. I watched almost outside of myself as I reached for the step. My foot was out of the plane. I waited for the “GO” from Rick and we pushed off simultaneously from the door. I was falling and trying to get into the right position. Arched out, we fell for a few brief seconds, feeling the mist of rain on our faces.

I remembered to look around and hold the camera where it could record the experience. Then Rick pulled the cord and the canopy opened over us and freefall was over. Rick was slightly apologetic as he told me we were going to spiral down quickly and immediately, I could watch the world spin below me as he spilled air and we descended quickly.

I was able to catch glimpses of Jamie above me, as we descended faster than him and Tom. Soon we were hanging over the runway of the airport, and I could hear the urgency in Rick’s voice as he tried to keep us from being blown into the treeline on the far side of the runway. The updraft kept us from descending quickly and I understood we needed to make it down before being blown into the trees.

Finally, we were just off the ground. I lifted my feet, and tried to straighten up, but fell as we landed. Rick, bound to me by the harness, fell, too. A moment later, he had released us and we were up, me, in total glee, him, wanting to gather up the parachute and get inside quickly.

As we rode in the back of the truck the short distance to the hanger, Rick and Tom discussed the jump and both agreed it was one they’d rather NOT have made. I was glad we’d jumped, relieved that we made it ok, and delighted that our pilots were as skilled as they were.

The only sad note for the afternoon is that my guy, Jesse, had decided, on the spur of the moment, to jump himself. He was in a harness and jumpsuit when we reached the hanger. Due to the weather, he didn’t get to make his jump.

Oh, well, I guess I’ll just have to jump again some week soon when I go back to Louisiana.

Hey, look at that…. fear has turned to joy, inaction to achievement! Hmmm….

Get out and play with your kid!

Monday, July 20th, 2009

It’s summertime! Kids are off from school and the days are long and the weather warm and sunny. It’s a perfect time to add some activity to your life by going out and playing with your children!

Your kids make perfect exercise buddies for the summer. They have boundless energy and love adventure. You can find new activities in the park, in the water, with bikes, at the Y, any number of places. Imagine discovering a new hobby to share with your child – something that could bind you together even when the typical mother-child disagreements happen.

You can rediscover a old favorite – tag, hide and seek or Red Rover. Be the mom where everyone comes to “see what’s happening!” Gather the whole neighborhood together for silly games on a summer evening. Bring out the lemonade and spend an evening away from the TV and video games.

How ’bout practicing for fall sports? Or even getting a jump on next spring. You can learn how to help with batting or fielding practice. Or throwing passes. Or volleyball, tennis, or golf! Even if it’s just increasing overall fitness by running together in the early mornings.

I got a chance to experience this this summer. My son, too, has the summers off from school. Just because he’s a high school English teacher, doesn’t mean that we couldn’t find some time to “go out and play!” Our choice was kayaking – take a look at our trip down the Nantahala River in North Carolina.
Jamie and Jeanne play the Nantahala

Girls’ Day Out

Thursday, April 2nd, 2009

So, after a weekend that included a bunch of running training and bookwork and researching and developing a flexibility training class for my advanced runners, I finally got my weekly day off yesterday. Fortunately, a couple of friends were also free for the day and we decided it was time for a Girls’ Day Out!

Now, in a previous life, or for many of my friends, Girls’ Day Out might signify a lot of things – maybe a late lunch at a small friendly restaurant, maybe shopping down the strip of the local shopping center. Maybe a couple of drinks. Perhaps, as a real splurge, an afternoon at the spa… massages, facials, nails.

For the three of us, this is NOT what we meant. WE meant a real day OUT! Out in the woods, out on the river. This day turned out a little differently, too. After several years of paddling, my only experience with an “all girls” trip has been several all-women’s clinics (taught by Anna Levesque – a fabulous kayaking instructor!). I paddle frequently with several women, but before, it seems, we’ve always linked up with larger groups that include men (and/or boys). This time, though we let people know we were going, it turned out to be just the 3 of us women. I finally have the confidence on this river that it didn’t make me overly worried that I was the experienced one on the trip.

After setting shuttle and gearing up (still spring paddling in CHILLY water), we hit the river. The day was sparkling, the river was sparkling. Recent rains guaranteed small waterfalls and streams were feeding the river and the level stayed fine. Three friends, even though two of us had never really met. Talking, laughing, floating, paddling down the river. Harder stuff, easier stuff… didn’t matter.

Friends on the Locust

Friends on the Locust

It’s different than paddling with guys – even the supportive ones are likely to be too protective or impatient with our need to look and “check it out.” With this group, it was easy to “stop and look” or “read and run.” Advice was offered without being orders and we were each free and comfortable to make our own decisions. Conversations that would NEVER happen with men around. A lot of appreciation of the sheer beauty of our environment.

One small mishap late in the run set us on our way to the takeout a little sooner, and with

Jeanne runs Double Trouble

Jeanne runs Double Trouble

fewer photos :{  than we planned. But even the mishap showed how well we worked together and supported each other, allowing each to work to their own capacity and ask for help when it was needed.

Get out with the girls! Challenge yourself, support each other, do something that’s hard and KNOW that you have the capacity to make it happen for yourself.

Perfect just isn’t good enough!

Thursday, February 19th, 2009

Recently, a friend lamented that she had not been “perfect” in her adherence to her eating  plan and wondered if she shouldn’t give up a program that was moving her forward in her weight loss quest, since she wasn’t “doing it right.” I replied that it wasn’t about “perfection.” I was referring to the need to balance things in life and that for many things, “pretty darn good” is plenty good enough. Perfectionism is “all or nothing” thinking and it does a couple of things to us. It creates procrastination, avoidance, and causes us to quit striving for things that are achievable in more time or less quantity than meets our inner ideals.

Perfectionism is the thing that said to me “if you can’t be the best, leave the playing field.” Because I was not a naturally talented athlete as a child, I learned that the best idea was to not compete. My attitude became “I’m a klutz, therefore, I read.” In a different era, perhaps my parents would not have let me take the easy way out, but growing up when I did, it was perfectly acceptable for girls to not be active. (Unfortunately, now, it is perfectly acceptable for all kids to not be active!)

Perfectionism is the evil that still says to me “you might fail, if you delay starting, you won’t know.” It’s why I can get lost for days in doing stupid stuff that doesn’t move me forward, and leaves nothing to show for it at the end of the day. It’s the thing that makes me scared to face where I am financially and avoid doing things like taxes and cleaning the house (if it can’t stay like this, why bother).

Perfectionism is the thing that says “if I can’t eat perfectly healthy and clean all the time, I may as well eat this whole cake.” It’s the impulse that starts a diet every Monday morning, lets us pig out all weekend long the weekend before (because we’re going to be perfect starting Monday), and THEN, when we give in to the Dove chocolate someone sticks on our desk, says “oh, well, there goes this week, I’ll start next week.” That trap leads us to gain weight, even while we are on a perpetual “diet.”

Perfectionism is the thing that says “I can’t run as fast as “______,” I’m JUST a jogger.” It’s the part of us that refuses to acknowledge our accomplishments as worthy and continually measures our gains against outside, not inside criteria. It’s the thing in me that says “so-and-so can be 180 lbs and wear size 10 – why can’t I, and I’m a lot lighter than that?” It’s the part that refuses to accept that we have different talents and genetics, but can choose to develop whatever we want to the fullest of our own potential and even beyond, if we choose.

It’s the evil ugly that says “this comes easy for my friend. If I struggle with it, it must be because I am inherently no good.” It’s the voice that says “why can’t you be like your sister (cousin, friend, classmate).”

Perfectionism is what allows us to forgive others (nobody’s perfect, after all), but not ourselves. We don’t even see it in ourselves. Many of us even attribute it to outside forces, even God. How many times have you heard someone say “I can’t go to church. God would strike it with lightning if I walked through the doors.” Yet we KNOW that God is the essence of forgiveness. If God can forgive you your failings, why can’t you forgive them? (And, by the way, who are you to judge yourself more harshly than God does anyway?)

We are works in progress. We can always be better and do better in some area of our lives. We make choices daily as to where to put our efforts today, and sometimes, the right choice is to slack off in one area to put more effort into something else, or even just to be “sluggish” for a bit. Sometimes, life overwhelms us, and we have to step back. Sometimes, the fear is real (failure IS an option).

But, daily, we need to strive to make the right choices, the choices that move us forward. We need to respond to our misfortunate choices in the way that a loving and kind parent or God does. “That’s ok, that wasn’t the best choice.  It didn’t work out the way you’d like. It had consequences you don’t like. But, it’s over, let’s move on.” In this way, we develop ourselves to the best we can be. Maybe not as fast as the “perfect” road would have gotten us there, but the perfect road probably doesn’t exist. You make the mistake, the world doesn’t respond the way you’d like, you zigged when you shoulda zagged. It’s alright. It happens to everyone. It’s about taking the step. Facing the challenge. Finding your courage. Remembering your commitment. Making the change.

Perfect isn’t good enough; it’s too good to be true.

Are you a “want to” or a “will to”?

Wednesday, January 14th, 2009

Recently, I was in the gym doing my last workout before some minor surgery would enforce a rest of 2-10 days (I still don’t know how long it will be, but I’ll be back in the gym and out on the trail as soon as I can). I have a goal to do an unassisted pull-up by the end of February and I was working my lat routine with the intent of losing as little possible ground towards this goal while I’m out.

As I was working, a woman I’ve seen before came in with her husband and grandson. It is true that she’s got her hands full with these two – the husband has some major disabilities which mean that she must direct his whole workout and the grandson has some mental disabilities meaning that he’s not self-sufficient either. She stopped over to ask about the status of one of my trainees, whose worklife went crazy right before Christmas.

Then she told me that they hadn’t been in the gym since before the holidays. She told me that she had missed it, and then she said something that just hit me as WRONG! She said “The want-to is there, but we just COULDN’T make time to do it.”

Unfortunately, it was just the wrong time to say it to me, especially as I had just been worrying about the young woman and whether SHE had been finding time to put exercise in her life and was annoyed because I’d be losing at least a few days of workout time myself. With my own history of putting everyone and everything else in front of my own health, I KNOW that what fitness requires is determining that YOU are worth the time you carve out for yourself, and that in general, there is always SOME time that you can carve out.

My response was probably less than empathetic… I blurted out “if you really wanted to, you would have made the time.” For this family, it is critical. The grandfather will lose mobility if he doesn’t keep movement a regular part of his life. The grandson is at risk of becoming sedantary and is already overweight. The woman needs the stress relief that actual exercise could bring her. Excuses that life is busy is getting in the way of life being better.

Energy and stress reduction from exercise is a huge component of a more fruitful life. I see it in my home life, where my mom’s health problems are most likely a result of years of smoking and a lifestyle that didn’t incorporate regular and focused exercise. I saw it in my own life, when I let life overwhelm me and steal years of greater enjoyment. I see it in the lives of others who make excuses, letting their “want to” take the place of a “will to.”

As this new year begins, make time in your life for consistent and regular exercise. If you need the help in making that commitment, find a way to do it. Workout dates with friends, competition with co-workers, online or in-person diet programs, hire a trainer, join an exercise class. Make the commitment to a person, not a gym, and find the WILL TO take charge of your life.

Of Girlfriends and Half-Marathons…

Tuesday, October 21st, 2008

This story starts a year ago, when 5 friends from eDiets ran a half-marathon in the mountains of California and inspired 21 to do it this year. 2007 was the second year for Cooth, Alicia and me to run together. We were joined by Honu and Janet. Based on our race reports, others started to speak longingly of our experiences. And so, I went searching. And found the perfect event, the Girlfriends Half Marathon in Vancouver, Washington (just north of Portland, OR).

A year is a lot of time. People joined the group, others left. Running wasn’t what some expected, others had
changes in family or financial situations. Some discovered ways to attend, others found circumstances preventing their participation. In the end, 16 runners and walkers, 3 supporting husbands, 4 non-participating women, one brother and a couple of interested eDieters agreed to meet in Vancouver for the weekend of October 19th.

We came from all over, from New England, the South, the Midwest, the West Coast and even from Scotland. We had in common a belief in the support of each other and the desire to reach incredible heights. In total, the group has lost over 1,000 pounds. Some of us have reached our goal, others are just beginning their health journey. All of us firmly believe it’s easier with friends!

For me, the drama began on Monday, in a seemingly minor incident. Walking through my living room, I caught my mom’s walker with my right foot, stubbing three toes. While the pain was sharp, it wasn’t particularly long lasting or bad. Except that Tuesday, one toe was still tender, bruised and unhappy when it was bent. Still, it’s a long way from Tuesday to Sunday and I was able to run with my runners on Tuesday evening. I dismissed the problem.

I left on Thursday for plenty of Girlfriend time with old friends and new. Although I knew everyone from the ediets online community, it was truly special to meet many of them face-to-face and spend time with others that I’d already met. I had almost 3 days to sightsee, visit, and bond with these amazing women! Unfortunately, on Saturday morning, I awoke with a right foot that was beyond sore – it was PAINFUL! Since I had no traumatic event, I could only believe it was the residual from the toe-stubbing.

The pre-race dinner was huge! 22 people converging on an ill-prepared restaurant was interesting, to say the least. We had plenty of time to socialize while waiting for food and sundries. Fortunately, most were able to satisfy their nutritional needs for a pre-race meal. By this time, I was limping badly and was contemplating alternatives for the next day’s race. I knew that running was a dumb idea – even had I been able to do it pain-free, it was sure to cause damage that could be a long time healing. I was nearly in tears as I talked with my closest friends and admitted I wasn’t sure I could do more than start the race and that even standing to wait for everyone else might be beyond me.

Lynette, dear, dear, wonderful Lynette, convinced me to try starting and walking with her. A broken bone in her foot had made her a probable non-participant as late as a week before the race. But, she promised to entertain me through the race and make walking palatable. Honu brought me ice and distracted me long enough to numb my foot and I planned my strategy – no orthotics, no running, a phone number to get a “pick-up” if the pain convinced me I would be doing damage, a painkiller in my pouch in case I needed it to get back.

Breakfast, race day… Lynette, Pratima, Debby and I shared a table and pre-race jitters. Mine were so different than other races. This time, it wasn’t about time. My goal of running with everyone was long abandoned. I still wasn’t sure I could start this race, much less finish. Optimism had me in race clothes, but I was conscious of my foot with every step. Miraculously, I felt no pain, only the ghost of the feeling that had been there the day before.

We walked to the start, gathered our group, welcomed two latecomers, Sabika and Laura, took myriads of pictures, laughed and cried and hugged. Lining up, I still felt nothing in my foot – a great sign, but it made me want to take my place in MY pace group! I stuck with the walkers. Not happy about that. But Lynette trained for the run and was excited and delighted to walk and there was Jan and Chaili and Sabika and Laura and Rashmi encouraging me. Smart, not hurt. Not hurt is too important.

We started, I hit the button on the Garmin and found our pace. Lynette and I settled in at something between 15 and 16 minute miles. While I would be comfortable slightly faster, it was obvious that we’d found Lynette’s limit. About 6 inches separates us in height and it was significant in stride! I brought my camera as a compensation for the inability to run. The first two miles passed in a blink – laughing, singing and talking, we soon found ourselves on a “two way” street, with the fastest of the runners passing us on the “back” of the first out-and-back! PICTURE TIME. I spotted almost everyone, thanks to the distinctive shirts courtesy of eDiets (note to self – dress participants in a breast cancer race in something OTHER than pink or red to stand out!) and got decent pictures of most.

The waterfront was cool and breezy and clouds covered the sky. Woulda been great if I were running, but not so much fun walking! We made the turn and started back, snapping pictures of our other walkers on the way. As we reached the 9 mile point, it became clear that my foot was going to give me the day. I was eager to run, but convinced that 4 miles was still too much. I argued internally and decided on running from 11. By the time we reached the second two way street, most of our fast runners were long gone (and almost finished!). But I managed to get pictures of a few!

As we started down the hill around 10.5 miles, my pace was speeding up and Lynette’s was slowing marginally. I still wanted to run but didn’t like the idea of the concrete surface. Finally, around 11 miles, I decided on a quicker pace, bid good luck to Lynette (it was now clear she’d make her own goal with no problem), set a finishing goal for myself and started pushing my own pace. Finally, we left the concrete and turned up a hill and I was free to run. It felt odd to be running so strong at 12 miles and to be passing out those walking and slogging along. But it also felt great to be doing what I had planned to do – RUN! Even if it was just one mile.

The finish line came up quick. Two of the husbands were waiting at the top of the last, one-block hill, along with our winner – Carmen! As I crossed the finish line, Janet, Honu, Pratima, Christine and others were waiting. And hugging. And crying. And, of course, grilling me to find out if I’d run too much. I was laughing and crying to finish so strong. In just under 3:14. A new personal worst! But truly a rose in the bleak landscape I had seen the night before.

Lynette appeared on schedule in just under 3 and a half hours. Jan walked in strong, Rashmi and finally Sabika and Laura crossed the finish line. We had personal bests, and first finishes, personal worsts and just finished. Two runners almost went under 2 hours! No trophies, but as I have said, we all finished first in our divisions! Just matters how you define your division! (First: Master’s women from Alabama here! First: woman who wanted to run but settled for mostly walking due to late injury, too!)

This half has amazing amenities! Well worth it, and I bet they get better organized every year! Participate if you can and always remember, it’s about the journey, not the medal!